It's 2.22am

to be exact. And i'm still awake when clearly, i need to be sleeping right now!

Went to starbucks and bought my first ever Frappucino Java Chips!

Okay, no big deal you probably would say. Whhhaatttt?! I know you've probably drank a million times before but its my first time so go away, you bummer!!!

I don't normally spend 10bucks on a cup of coffee but guess what, Starbucks is giving 50% off! woots woots~ AND, pizza is also giving 50% off selected pizza!!

whhhaattt?! oh yea, you heard me! :D

Maybe it's the caffein. Maybe it's my sweet tooth. Disrupting me from my sleep.

Okay i really gotta sleep now. Futsal practice tomorrow for the last time before IVG (intervarsity games). Keep ya fingers cross. Hope i don't break my leg :P

BTW, i'm so lovin' my jersey. The colour is green. GO GREEN!!! In short, its GG!

Ok now i'm just being lame. I'm going to bed now.

Oh wait, i haven't brush my teeth. :P

what can i say?

This is a random rant of the week. If you already have a terrible day. Please don't read this. It aint gonna make your day any better but ten times worse.

Sorry, i really need to get things off my chest.

There have been so much happening lately. I don't even know where to begin. All i know is that all these things are slowly munching and feasting on the little energy still left of me. Forget about futsal practice, or squash practice, i'm talking about stuffs that bug your mind and bothers your conscience. Yes, everyone has been blowing their heads off trying to come out with a solution that would make everybody happy. But truth is, you can never please anyone, can you?

*****

I know i haven't been the very steady friend that you've always wanted me to be. I'm sorry for always being afraid to pick a side. Sad to say, i am a little timid. And i apologise for being a coward. But i'll never ever betray you, just in case you had any doubts about that. I know you're going through kind of a rough path yourself, just so you know i'll always be behind you, supporting you and defending you no matter what. I've been wanting to say this for a long time, so here goes...

" hey buddy, i've got your back! Don't worry... :) "

*****

I know i have been too selfish. All i care about is what i want. I'm sorry if you had to walk away with a scar in your heart, pretty convinced that friends are superficial and fake. I'm sorry that i played a part in proving to you friends will not be there when you need them too. And i know despite all these apologies, you don't feel any better. To be completely honest, I don't hate you, nor dislike you. I just don't really know you. You're just like a very distant friend to me. I don't really know anything about you.

*****

I'm sorry if you were hurt. I know how fragile a girl's heart can be. Because i am a girl too. I don't know if things will ever be the same again after all these, but i just want you to know i've always liked you. You're always so sincere, nice and sweet. You are always sacrificing and putting other people's interest in front of yours. I really admire this about you.

*****

This was supposed to be a happy thing. I realized that human beings will always be selfish and greedy. And i'm not any different. I know that i shouldnt be like this for God will never be happy with me, but it is too late to even try making things right. This whole conflict has ended, needless to say, it din't really end well. But what i can i say? I'm partly at fault too. And i'm not gonna deny that.

A day that blows.

sometimes, i wonder if you've changed.

and then i realized, i'm in no position to wonder for i have not known you long enough.

but still, i choose to believe you have.

oh no, don't get me wrong. Change isn't such a bad thing. I always believe that people change.

Truth be told, i think i've changed too. And i think it was you who taught me how.

You know i'm sorry for always throwing you with sarcastic remarks and teases.

And i'm sorry for apologizing and yet still continue doing so.

You think i'm being self-centered. I just think it's self-defense. You think i'm being selfish. I just think i'm being protective.

Maybe one day, i'll teach you the art of self-defense. And you'll thank me for that.

Or maybe one day, i'll meet that someone that completely throws me off guard.

I know that i'm weak and fragile. But it's just something i'll never admit to.

Sometimes, i don't understand. Sometimes, i just don't see. Sometimes, i just don't get it.

Why things happen the way they do?

What is God trying to hint? Or what is He trying to do?

I know that my faith has flaws. My trust has loop holes. I know i did not turn out to be the child He has always wanted me to be.

But i did try. Don't say i never try. Maybe not hard enough, but i always go back to the point i started.

People say the world is round. I doubt so. It's rectangle in shape and when you reach the sharp edges, you'll fall so hard it breaks all the bones in you. You'll never be able to keep walking until you reach the point you started. In other words, you can never re-do what you did. And you can never go back to how things were.

But of course, life offers you the BEST !!! I don't know about yours but i think i'm having so much more than i deserve.

I should start counting my blessings and stop complaining...

and i should stop expecting too much... cause a wise man once said, expectation is like a double-edge sword.

:)

I always feel that people should be happier. I don't understand emo-ness. I don't understand why one has to ruin a perfect day emo-ing about unimportant stuffs. I don't understand why being happy is so difficult. And i find it suffocating to be mad and angry. It just freaking eats up too much of my energy!

On a happier note, i'm so looking forward to the weekend. And then weekdays come afterwards :P

Just for laugh

Here's a little joke for you ;)

Najib Tun Razak was visiting a chinese school.

In one class, he asks the students if anyone can give him an example

of a "tragedy."

One little boy stands up and offers that, "If my best friend who lives

next door is playing in the street when a car came by and killed him,

that would be a tragedy."

"No," Najib says, "That would be an ACCIDENT."

A girl raises her hand. "If a school bus carrying fifty children drove

off a cliff, killing everyone inside...that would be a tragedy."

"I'm afraid not," explains Najib. "That is what we would call a GREAT LOSS."

The room is silent; none of the other children dare volunteer.

"What?" asks Najib, "Isn't there anyone here who can give me an

example of a tragedy?"

Finally a boy in the back raises his hand. In a timid voice, he says,

"If an airplane carrying you and Datin Seri Rosmah was blown up by a

bomb, *that* would be a tragedy."

"Wonderful" Najib beams. "Marvelous! And can you tell me WHY that

would be a tragedy?"

"Well," says the boy, "because it wouldn't be an accident, and it

certainly would be no great loss!"

The Principal & Staff of the school got transferred out.

Laugh out loud right !!! ohh well, it's just a joke, dont take it so seriously :D cheer!



Here's another joke i came across on the facebook!!!

OMG !!!!! I was in the public toilets and had just squatted down, a voice from the next cubicle said "Hi !, how are you ?" Embarrassed, I said, "I'm doing fine". The voice said "So what are you up to ?". I said, "Just doing the same as you!". From next door, "Can I come over?". Annoyed, I said " rather busy right now". The voice said, "Listen, i will have to call you back, there's an idiot next door answering all my questions". repost if you laughed...:)

Happy April's Fool :)

It's that day of the year where you can play all kinds of pranks on people without having to be scolded :) but here i am, miles away from friends, with no victim to play pranks on. Hmph!

I can't believe its FRIDAY already!!! Omg, how time flies... i could distinctly remember it was only Monday few minutes ago... I don't wanna go back to study =*(



I don't really know what to talk about in this post. Hmm, maybe i can entertain you with some stories and gossips... would that interest you? Hahaha, should i talk about how i saw a guard kissing a warden one night in hostel? Or should i talk about how my friend tried to go after a girl and ended up with a squashed broken heart? Or should i talk about how a friend left home and never came back? Or should i talk about the recent breakup of a friend?
(none of the above is true, except for one) TEEHEE.

Happy April's Fool peeps!
Can't pull a prank on you today, lucky you!!! But beware next year :D

I shall end this post with a joke...

Husband: everytime I make you cry, you never fight back. how do you manage your anger?
Wife: I clean the toilet seat...
Husband: How does it help?
Wife: I use your toothbrush!!!!

Ha-ha-ha-ha-ha...